Double Dose

This is not an interesting post whatsoever and is mainly for me to remember and also to show my kids what I had to go through to get them. Yes I will probably be one of those parents. J

I was thinking about it last night and I would be really interested to see the amount of money we have spent just in 2012 trying to have a baby. I know that it is not near as much as some people because I do have insurance but it is probably a crazy amount.  People always tell you that having kids is expensive but I am putting it out there that if you cannot have a baby on your own and need help it is not free.

Anyhow, I am one week into my pills/shots and so far so good. When I started the shots on Saturday I had to give myself a little pep talk about why I needed to pull it together.  I am actually doubling my injections and I was really able to tell because going from 1 ml of the Bravelle to 2 ml burns a whole lot more.

Tomorrow is my next ultrasound and blood work and it is really a make or break it appointment. Please pray that I am good to go and this cycle is not canceled due to over stimulation   

Not quite like Chris church mouse....

When I was little we used to read the stories of Christopher Curchmouse by Barbara Davoll?
They are really cute books and some of my favorite. With that said a mouse in a story is very different than a live mouse.

A few weeks ago I noticed that I may have a very unwelcome mouse friend making house in my basement. In the 2.5 years we have lived at IRA this has never been a problem until now. I freaked out and went on a cleaning frenzy because let's be honest little mouse poop is so disgusting.

I went out right away and bought some standard mouse traps and put a little peanut butter in the middle. Weeks went by and nothing and I assumed that my mouse friend had decided that he wanted to make house elsewhere. Life was good until last Saturday while putting up the rest of my Christmas decor I find a little mouse poop once again.

If it was not for getting into HUGE trouble with my husband I probably would have given every item that resides in the basement away because of how grossed out I am by this mouse. After getting over my disgust and fear I headed back out to the store to get some more traps. I ended up with the sticky glue pads.

Monday night we set all six of  them out all around the base of the basement. Nothing happened until last night when I made Luke go and check. He calls me downstairs right away claiming that one of the pads was all the way across the room upside down and stuck to the rug.

Basically we have GI JO mouse on our hands people because the little sucker must have got stuck freaked out and then decided he was going to win. He must have chewed his way free because we found clumps of mouse hair and poop all around where the sticky pad was stuck to the carpet. If you are thinking that the sticky pads must have not been sticky enough I will challenge you to go buy one stick it on your rug and then try and pull it off. I wish I would have taken a picture because the sight was really just unbelievable.

At this point it is mouse 2, Stephanie & Luke 0. However we set out some more snap traps so I just hope little mouse enjoys his last few days because I am not giving up no matter what it takes. 

One day at a time

I had a really hard day today. I think after my appointment yesterday the fear and dread really set in. I am afraid of letting myself have hope that this next cycle may work because if it does not I will be devastated again. I am afraid of my meds and shots and the way they make me feel. As crazy as this sounds I am also afraid of getting pregnant again because what if I miscarry.

Luke and I went to the gym tonight and I had a really good workout but probably pushed myself way to hard. I just kept thinking how by pushing myself to run I was able to control something in my life. Infertility is so far out of my control that I feel at a lost most of the time.

No matter how afraid and out of control i feel IUI cycle #2 has officially started. I am going to try and just focus on getting through each day one at a time.

The BEST

We had our banquet tonight and it was so much fun. I am reminded daily when I am around these girls just how blessed I am. They are a great group of girls really the best.  Here is all of us.

The best part of the night was my rap performed by Maddie featuring Leah and Audrey.

Very long Vlog update

Trick or Treat

For the last few years I have wanted to take pictures of the trick or treaters that come to my door because some of them are so funny. I however do not because I am sure the parents would think that was creepy. So instead of pictures here is who I had ring my doorbell tonight.

• 5 middle school boys that as I was pulling into my garage and getting out of my car they ambush me saying trick or treat. I was not even all the way out of my car so I told them I did not have any candy. The one kid then asked my if he could have my gas can instead. Not sure what he wanted to do with that but I told him no and said if they would hang tight another 15 minutes then people will start turning their lights on and then they can start ringing doorbells. We actually ended up arguing about what time trick or treating started. Not sure why I was arguing with the kid except that most junior high boys annoy me. 
• Scary 5 year old Zombie. I open the door and the first thing he says to me is "two kit kats"" He must have really loved those because he forgot to say trick or treat. 
• 3 year old cute sparkle witch. It was her first time and she took like 8 pieces of candy. She was so cute i did not stop her but finally her mom gets her to stop and she decides she needs to come in for a little visit. She barrels right past me and right into the kitchen. The mom was mortified and said, she keeps going into peoples houses. I thought it was quite funny.
• Wizard or a least that is what I thought he was and S.W.A.T. Boy  - This was really funny because he had the entire getup. These kids forget what they say most just stand their and don't say a word.
• 2 high school girls all in black and one had a pair of wings on. Where are the itties at?
• Spider man & Strawberry shortcake. These two were the cutest and friendliest so far.

1% Chance

Ever since I met Luke he has wanted to name his first son Lucas James Sherman. I have always said absolutely no because that is just weird to name your kid the same name as your hubby (sorry to those that did) it is just not done anymore. I can not even imagine what our friends and family would say. Don’t get me wrong it is a great name but not something I want to do at all. You would not believe how many times that this conversation has come up and we actually have had fights over this issue. I say no every time and Luke says yes, it is a no win situation.

Last night we were talking about babies and I must have had a momentary lapse of judgment because I say “If we get pregnant this month and have twins and one is a boy then you can name it Lucas James and I will name the other one”. Now I know the probability is really slim and I did put a time limit on this statement but I said it.  I guess I probably have a 1% chance that I may have to follow through on through on this promise. Who knows what I will say next month, I need a filter!